I hate to be down but I have to admit so far 2010 has proved to be my most challenging year yet! On the 4th day of what was suppossed (in my mind) to be a dream year we lost our baby boy. Think about it day 4 of a New Year! We were still on that post holiday high, my resolutions were still fresh and in an instant BAM none of that stuff mattered anymore! I miss him daily & have gone very few without shedding a tear! What a way to start a year! I was NEVER so glad to see January come to an end & February roll around!
February came with more heart break. My very best friend from high school (the best example of living for Christ as a teen that I have ever known) lost her precious mom. She is in Heaven today with my baby boy. My heart is broken for Sue Ellen & her family but I know God is in control and her mom is pain free!
Our church in Oklahoma (where we attended 13 years) has faced many challenges this year too. We still have many friends and family there who we deeply love and care about. Many of them are hurting right now! My heart aches for them and I am praying daily for God to heal them. Sometimes I don't understand why we humans have to be so human! But we are! I just want to be like Jesus!
I know that God has a plan for my 2010 and I completely trust him with it! I have already been given opportunities to share with other women who have lost or are facing loosing a child. Two months ago I could have hurt for them-NOW I HURT WITH THEM! There is a difference! Although my prayer is that no one would ever loose a child again, if one should my prayer is that I could help in any way God would allow. I am no expert but so willing to pray!
I'm praying for a better week for all around me!
"Oh taste and see that the LORD is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him" Psalm 34:8
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